Compromise

Compromise .....Compromise.....Compromise...!!!

I detest this word! But in reality, Compromises can make or break life !

What do 'you' want? never mind.. just a slight compromise and it'll do u a world of good !

What do 'you' like ? never mind.. compromise, smile and tolerate even if u don't like! You'll become a favorite person to all!

What do 'you' think? never mind... give ears to others' thoughts.. Life will be easier!

Life is full of such compromises! Some compromises make us feel like another Buddha. Some make us feel rotten.. Some make us feel frustrated. But in all this, one loses one's own identity!

Mind and body slowly get numb. We no longer act assertive in establishing our own likes and wants. Is this what they cleverly call "older wiser"? aghh...

In compromising there is no scale in assessing the depth! Everyone to their own ! After a lot of compromises in the name of life, love, like, respect and what not, I really don't know who I'm anymore ! When I look back, i see a sunny gal with innocence as pure as snow, lots of trust, faith, with a world-is-my-oyster kind of confidence! The tastes, likings, wants.. they are still the same. But the person is irrevocably changed! Innocence is forever lost. Trust, faith and the go-getter attitude.. everything is still there... but heavily tinged with cynicism!!

"Cynic" is the apt way to describe Compromises. Be it small or big ones, compromises turn a person into a hardened cynic ! Fact of life ! What do I get in return? Loving family, excellent career..I'm sure. All my compromises make me an apple in the eye of my family and friends ! awww...

so why crying hues???

Because sometimes, even loving family and excellent career couldn't ward off the longing for the lost things, the acute loneliness and Identity crisis ! Chronic Identity Crisis'itis'!

Where is "ME"?
where have i left my true self in my race towards achieving the above two that is loving family and excellent career?

I dont know... i'm perplexed.... I feel lost.....